June 20th 2009

I have not written for a while and I have missed it. Missed it terribly. How can it be in life that the things you need to do the most get neglected and relegated to the bottom of the list. You know the kind of list that drives you and governs your minutes and hours but at the lists end it leaves a nagging lingering not having achieved anything. On this sunny Saturday morning  I am pondering my neglected list. Writing on my blogs, tidying up the chaotic insides of my car, organising containers still shambolic after returning from America 5 months ago. I have trimmed my beard, and sit here writing determined to make today the beginning of a turnaround for me. Exercise, exercise, exercise…………..and doing a cleanse. It seems so wrong that some of the pleasures of life become the banes of your life too. Sleep, working on the computer, food and time.
But at least I have the capicity to change these things. Some are denied the priviledge. In the last 12 hours I have watched several movies. PS. I Love You and The Diving Bell and The Butterfly. These two movies have hugely effected me in different ways. They have made me realise how much I love, and how fortunate I am to be able to live move and breathe. Today I will try and live in the lessons i gleaned from stories.
I am my own story, and I hope to write it. Today this is part of that.
I have discovered some old poems and feel the stirring in my soul for some new ones, spawned by the space I find myself in with all its unique variables.
So I hope to return very very soon with some new words.
Today is a new beginning and I am optimisitic enough to believe in yet another of my new beginnings……………..